Mom's thoughts

We have been a forever family for a little over 4 months now and it has been fantastic.  I have wanted to be a mom for years now, and it feels better than I ever imagined it could.  Some days I just look at Maya and think, how could I be so lucky, I'm a mom to the cutest, brightest and loving girl in the world.  I'm so blessed to have been given this gift from God.  I've been thinking a lot about the day that Maya asks us about China and why her birth mom gave her away.  I have thought about what we will say to her and in my head it sounds like it will be ok, but when I look at her, I see how hard having that conversation will be.  Her eyes say exactly how she feels and I can't imagine having to have this conversation and looking into those beautiful dark eyes and seeing disappointment.  We do tell her lots about China and we have a book of pictures that I put together of our trip.  We leave them out and she goes to look at them almost everyday.  She points to the pictures and I describe what they are.  She always will pick up the book and says DaDa and gives him a kiss.  It's so cute.  Maya will be 19mo. in a few days and I can't believe how fast it is going.  I now look at her and I don't see my little baby anymore.  I see my sweet little girl growing and getting bigger and stronger everyday.