Disturbing

This evening I was introduced to a web site called " a childs right". It is an organization that brings water filtration systems to orphanges that so desparately need clean water. I was told to look at the web site because it shows pictures of the inside of the orphanages. My understanding is that this is rarely seen by anybody, we have been told that when we go to China to pick up Maya, that we will either receive her outside the orphange or in the lobby area. Rarely is anyone ever allowed to see inside the rooms of where the children are, now I see why. I was so upset and disturbed by the pictures that Tim told me that I shouldn't be looking at them. Then I thought I should see this, this is going to be our reality, a place that our daughter will be raised for the first 10months of her life. I felt it was necessary to educate myself to the life of all these helpless children. Most of the children in the pictures all were just laying in beds with at least one other child, I use the term beds very loosely. When they did have a normal crib, it looked very dirty and some were just metal frames with bamboo mats on the bottom. One picture that hit me the hardest was a baby probley no older than a month sleeping in a box!! Almost every child had a very flat head, this is from laying on their backs almost all day. As I was viewing these pictures I thought to myself, do any of the "nannies" get any sort of training? I'm not even sure if it's lack of training or lack of common sense. They had pictures of these 2 babies in a crib that were only 2 weeks old and they are being feed with bottles that are proped up on pillows and just left in their mouth!! What is that? I just can't believe that this is how you treat a new life. I'm having a very hard time right now seeing both sides of this. I know that I am truly thankful that there are organizations out there who are trying to keep these children healthy. I know where our next donation will be going to now.