I don't even know where to begin, my emotions range from sadness and frustration, to anger. The process of bringing our daughter home just keeps growing and seems like it will never end, the uncertainties that are arising now are not what we were expecting. We felt that China was the best fit for us because of they were known for having the most stable and smooth process with adoption. I don't believe that this is the case anymore. Every week it seems to be something new. Last week it was that orphanages were raising their fees, and this week it is that a visa to come into the country has now gone up. Yesterday the news was the definitely the frosting on the cake. The CCAA (Chinese center for adoption of affairs) has been referring children that have had "corrected special needs" to families who are not in the special needs waiting group! They said that if it has been corrected once it's not considered a special need anymore. I have a real problem with this, and I already know what people are going to say " if you were pregnant and gave birth you wouldn't have a choice of the special needs that the baby might have". Your absolutely right about that, but in this situation we had the choice to choose and it wasn't an easy decision to make. We had to do a lot of soul searching and thinking about what we could handle emotionally and financially. It is heart wrenching when you do have to look at those boxes and put the check marks by what is acceptable for you and your family. We know that our daughter is going to have her own special needs that we will need to work hard on, but to place a child with a family that was not prepared for the needs is just not right. I know in our hearts that we would love any child that God blesses us with, but to be sneaky about it, I don't like that!