Feeling overwhelmed

I'm having a super hard time lately, this adoption process is harder than I ever imagined. We receive a monthly update from our agency, and the news just keeps getting worse. The way it stands now, there is little to no hope that Maya will be home with us in 2008. We are so sad and just flat out discouraged. Our agency is holding a conference on line, for all families adopting from China, regarding the wait. They have made it mandatory for one of us to be on the call. This makes me a little nervous. All I want is our daughter home and begin our lives together, this frustration and sadness is consuming me. I can't even focus on anything else. Nothing takes my mind off this situation. I need a vacation!! I'll let you know what was said on the conference call.